I'll lick you if you don't go away!

mMm I like it like that(that song, you shits)
2004-10-14....3:51 p.m.

Boy does it make me happy to see girls who've highlighted their hair so much and for so long that it is now just a grayish rough looking shitty mess. I think they believe it's a blonde color, but it honestly just looks gray and horribly dull. Lifeless. Stiff and rough and nowhere near soft. And you can't even see highlights in it anymore because there are so many that it's all just one color now. A gray color.
It really makes me feel good inside.
Ah, the price you pay for altering yourself to be more fake looking. ::warm smile::

Do you ever have the interactions with people where you know they're purely based on sexuality? Where you don't talk with each other to listen and learn really, but to entice and lure? I mean not like explicitly sexual, not saying things that even SOUND sexual in any way...but I donno. It's hard to describe, but it's interesting, and it's a lot simpler than actually caring about the person. This entire paragraph is going to come out completely wrong because I don't know how to correctly describe what I'm talking about. I'm not saying you lounge in sexual poses or talk like "yeah baby blahblah" or act like that at all. I guess it just comes about when two people know they aren't likely to really care for each other because they're so different, but are still attracted to each other. Or something like that. And this makes me sound like a horny skank too, but I can argue I'm not, and if you know me you should know as well. I don't jump the bones of every/any guy I date, and I'm not searching for that type of thing. You all know I want that true love bullshit, and I know that getting sexual in the relationship right away will in most cases kill all chances of that. And I don't get sexual in relationships. Things went further ONCE with one person, and I understand why that happened. But I'm not the sex-seeking nympho that numerous friends joke that I am(although they do understand that I'm not a little miss slut slut lol). I mean yeah I think I'm definately a lot more confident with the concept of sex than a lot of people are, and I make dumb innuendos and all and am rather informed, but that doesn't mean I participate in any of it. Not to say I don't want to, lol, but I'm not stupid enough to do things with just anyone. Circumstances have to be just right for me to do certain things(sexual and non sexual), and I don't know if the circumstances are right until i'm in the situation and I believe they are or not. I don't have any real guidelines.....and, most of the time circumstances aren't right. So er yeah...whatever I'm talking about. But anyway sometimes a little scandalous flirting is all a person needs. ;)

I still really love all the music that was released the fall of my sophomore year. It still feels like that fall was just yesterday. But yet somehow It was two full years ago. In perspective, that's a pretty long time. Considering last fall seems to be really distant. But fall of Sophomore year feels like it wasn't so long ago. I guess it's a permanent part of me, at least for now.
It really was an amazing time of my life.

Well, sure I could ramble more since this is short really, but, I do have some things to *attempt* taking care of today, so I think I'll keep moving.

I'm out byotch.

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